24 February 2010

Beautiful Things on the Horizon ...

This is just a quick message to say that I have been pretty busy lately with trying to make things better. This DOES include the blog, but moreso includes the betterment of me, my relationship, and my life as a whole. No, nothing is wrong. Just making sure everything is "right" - for those of you that don't understand, get to understand for your truest happiness.

I'm working on being the most authentic me that I can be and it is seemingly making life much easier. I have begun releasing the things outside my control with a bit more ease and God has definitely been "pulling His weight" in other parts.

Let's just say there are many amazing things preparing to happen and I look forward to the opportunity to tell you more about them all in due time.

I am attempting to write to you more often than my sporadic rants/raves/otherwise in the past. Please bare with me as God makes things happen.

VWayne

16 February 2010

REFOCUSING

So I know I told you I'd be sure to post every day this month but, as you can see, this promise has been unfulfilled. Well I find a great way to describe this comes by way of a tweet from my "bro-n-law" today:

"Motivation can be one of the most elusive qualities! I find myself working diligently but feeling uninspired! I need to refocus!"

to which I replied:

"AMEN Bro-N-Law! I know EXACTLY what you mean ... the ever-elusive motivation always finds a way to evade me."

Without giving explanation (I feel like I explain myself too much when it's really unnecessary) I will just try and refocus.  Or perhaps it's asking too much to refocus on something that is without the fullest of your heart. If you can't commit your full heart to it, it's highly unlikely that you will immerse yourself into all aspects needed to accomplish it. Or it could get accomplished, but not with "A" quality.

I've decided I will just begin posting whenever I feel it necessary ... when something really strikes my fancy. This blog was never intended to be a journal or diary, so posting daily isn't exactly necessary. Inspiration and motivation can (and does) come at any given moment. When it does, that's when you'll hear from me. I find myself feeling guilty about not having posted for those of you who read my words and the truth is (without attempting to sound rude or insensitive) it's not about you. I do enjoy the few sporadic comments I receive as do I appreciate your visiting and reading (or just looking at the pictures) but the fact of the matter is that this is for me and my own personal expression of my own feelings, interpretations and creativity.

So follow me, if you will, along my new path of self-expression ...

02 February 2010

VWayne'z Big Month of Inspiration ... W is for ...

Hey there!

So here's the second installment of my inspirations month. 2nd letter of the title is "W" so ... W is for ...


Women!



I am SUUUUPER inspired by women. Don't read too much into it before you know what I'm attempting to say. I'm NOT saying I am "going back" to women. I am NOT saying that I want to be one. I am NOT saying I want to go full-fledged into fashion (design) or anything (although I have dabbled in design - and am tossing around the idea of designing swimwear with a great WOMAN friend of mine). I am NOT trying to say I think them some superior sex or anything. I am inspired by certain men but not by the race (can you call a gender/sex a race? hmmm) as a whole.
I AM, however saying there are many things about women that make them AWESOME! Without yet getting into the general aspects of women as a whole, I can first mention the women in my life. My mother, sisters, and close women friends AMAZE me on so very many levels and induce a great sense of being better within myself. This isn't only for myself, but also to be a better representative of the collective male gender. I don't know a black man who isn't totally enamored with his mother. She endures so much and, typically/stereotypically, has to become both mother and father to her kids. She carries a great deal of burden. She's the greatest example of rolling with the punches, all the while continuing to provide for her family. She's the truest example of altruism at it's FINEST! Don't misunderstand me, there are many men who are capable of and exemplify the same traits. However, in the black community (not to point any fingers) this man and his presence comprise some sort of myth or tall tale - some story you hear about whilst roasting marshmallows around a roaring campfire. (Can you see the intended imagery?) 
These are just a few reasons why women - for the sake of this argument, I'll go so far as to specify BLACK WOMEN - are regarded so highly within their communities (and even outside). I'm not sure what causes the degeneration of this admiration and perception with respect to the way black men treat their women, but that's another blog on another day. Please don't misunderstand, I don't want to, in any way, infer or imply black women are somehow better than women of any other race. I just utilized them as the embodiment of my current point - nothing more (or less).







Moving right along ...



The fairer sex holds so many strengths, it's weird to call her the weaker sex. So they aren't as brawny nor are they as burly as men (well, in more cases than not), but despite this fact, they accomplish many things men wouldn't attempt if afforded the opportunity. Carrying a baby is the easiest example, of course, and we can't forget that monthly "bitch" that visits and makes life hell for women and men alike (well the ramifications affect men). To take that a step forward, they endure these things and still maintain their composure and accomplish their day-to-day tasks with a smile on their face! *WHEW* I almost lost it on y'all and you wouldn't have known where I was coming from. *calms down* 
Let us also remember the things they do for men ... I won't even go into the sexual things they do to make men happy. Let's venture, briefly, to high heels, bikini waxes, tummy tucks, botox, breast implants and the like. Granted, these things might seem superficial to some, but what causes the want to put saline-filled balloons into one's chest? I'm gonna say it's because man has said this was something he likes to see. She doesn't have to get her muff shaven, yet she does it because it's what the man wants it. (I'm getting silly but my intended purpose is not lost - I hope) Sure this could be seen as some sort of self-esteem issue or a question of self-worth, but from where does even THAT stem? If men hadn't given women these ideas that they weren't good enough in the skin God provided, there wouldn't be these issues. They could just as easily say EFF EWE and keep it moving. Then where would you be?! *sorry, I got worked up again* :o)

To wrap this up, I am more than inspired by the plight of the woman. She endureth so very much and yet receiveth no thanks for it. Hell, even dealing with this thankless job, she STILL continues in spite of it all! She's the epitome of God's blessings to man, yet she isn't treated with her just due of respect. Well, ladies, you've got a friend in me. I place you on the pedestal that which was erected explicitly for you - in your honor. You bear the children! You deal with the nonsense! You sacrifice your own self-worth, needs, and ofttimes happiness for the betterment of those surrounding you! You put up with chauvinism! You create a nurturing atmosphere for us! Hell, perhaps you ARE the superior sex!








YOU INSPIRE ME!



For these, and a myriad of other reasons, you deserve thanks! I know it isn't an equal payment for services rendered, but I will give that to you! My hat goes off to you!











**Pictures from google searching (aside from my mom & granny) ... If you hold a copyright to any, please contact me and I'll remove them.**

01 February 2010

VWayne'z Big Month of Inspiration ... V is for ...

OK ... so I know I said I was going to do a blog every day in the month of February with my month of things that inspire me, but I was busy yesterday and so I forgot. Well, I'm gonna try and get back to it. So here goes ...

Oh yea, take note, I changed the name to include "of" instead of "~o~" because I have an "F" inspiration.

So ... V is for ...

Victor Wayne Fuller, Jr ... DUH!
*that's me, for those of you who didn't know*


Of course I inspire myself. I believe inspiration comes from seeing yourself (or the self you want to be) in other people or other things. With that being said, it's a definite must that you see for yourself, first, before living vicariously through others. *It's becoming somewhat of a recurring theme for me that you have to start at home FIRST!* Anyway, yea, I inspire me.

I don't know where I was going with this (I guess a lot of my posts end like that, huh?

Ciao for Now