I JUST DON'T **KCUFING** UNDERSTAND

DISCLAIMER: SORRY FOR THE CAPS (AND EXPLETIVES) - I'M ANGRY!



SO, I JUST FOUND OUT THAT SOME KCUFING COMPANY HAS TAKEN MONEY OUT OF MY BANK ACCOUNT FOR SOME SORT OF "TRIAL PERIOD" I NEVER SIGNED UP FOR. ACCORDING TO THEM, I SIGNED UP FOR SOMETHING ON 13MAY AND WOULD HAVE NEEDED TO CANCEL YESTERDAY IN ORDER TO NOT BE BILLED OR HAVE AUTO-SHIPMENTS COME OUT OF MY ACCOUNT.

NO ONE CAN PRODUCE THE DOCUMENTS THAT I APPARENTLY "SIGNED" IN ORDER TO HAVE THESE THINGS SHIPPED TO ME, NOR CAN THEY TELL ME WHAT IT'S FOR. (BASED UPON THE NAME, I HAVE FIGURED OUT THAT IT'S FOR SOME SORT OF TEETH WHITENING TIHS).  I DO SEE A CHARGE ON MY ACCOUNT FOR $1.03 ON 15MAY (NOT 13MAY) THAT I DIDN'T NOTICE - AND A CHARGE FOR SOME OTHER  $4 OR $5 ON 18MAR. I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND - WHAT SITE DID THEY PULL MY INFORMATION FROM IN ORDER TO PROCESS SOME RANDOM CHARGES FROM MY ACCOUNT AND NOW $94+ TODAY? HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE BEEN VICTIMS OF THIS BS AND HAD SMALL AMOUNTS COME OUT THAT THEY DIDN'T NOTICE UNTIL TOO LATE?

TOO ADD INSULT TO INJURY, MY KCUFING BANK WON'T EVEN DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT RIGHT AWAY?! WTF?! I HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL IT ACTUALLY "POSTS" TO MY ACCOUNT FOR ME TO TELL YOU THAT SOME BULL-TIHS IS GOING ON AND YOU MAKE EFFORTS TO RECTIFY THE TIHS?  I FIGURE BECAUSE I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WITH IT AND IT WENT ON MY DEBIT CARD, THAT IT'S PROTECTED BY VISA AND THEY SHOULD BE ABLE TO TAKE CARE OF IT IF THE BANK DOESN'T. UGH - I CAN'T EVEN THINK STRAIGHT AND MY BLOOD IS BOILING SOMETHING SERIOUS!

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THE ABOVE BRINGS UP SOME OTHER BULL-TIHS THAT I'M CURRENTLY DEALING WITH ...

WELL, YOU MAY OR MAY NOT KNOW THAT I'VE STARTED SOME BUSINESSES THAT ARE PAYING ME DIRECTLY INTO MY PAYPAL ACCOUNT.  WELL RECENTLY I'VE FOUND OUT THAT I CAN'T ACCESS ANY OF THE MONEY I'M MAKING RIGHT NOW BECAUSE THERE IS ANOTHER ACCOUNT OPEN IN MY NAME WHERE THERE IS AN OUTSTANDING BALANCE - TO THE TUNE OF ~$850!!!! I'M SORRY ... COME AGAIN?!

WELL, AFTER FURTHER EXPLANATION, I FOUND OUT THAT IT'S FROM AN ACCOUNT OPENED SOME 5 OR 6 YEARS AGO.  THE DISPUTES ON THE ACCOUNT ARE FROM CUSTOMERS COMPLAINING THAT SOME PHONES WERE ORDERED THROUGH MY ACCOUNT ON EBAY AND THEY WERE NEVER RECEIVED.  THE MOMENT THE MAN SAID CELL PHONES (AND SPECIFICALLY THE MODELS OF THE PHONES IN QUESTION) I KNOW WHICH MUTHA-KCUFER DID THIS SHIT. MY UNNAMED EX (MORE MIND-BLOWING INFORMATION ON HIM NEXT MONTH) WAS SELLING CELL PHONES ON MY ACCOUNT - AND I KNEW THIS - BUT APPARENTLY RECEIVED THE MONEY AND POCKETED BOTH THE $$$$ AND THE MERCHANDISE.

I WILL TELL YOU THAT IF I WERE A DIFFERENT PERSON AND I SAW THAT SON OF A HCTIB ON THE STREET, I WOULD WOOP ... THAT ... SSA!  THEN I WOULD TAKE A BREAK!  THEN I WOULD WOOP ... THAT ... ASS ... AGAIN! UGH!

NOW I CAN'T ACCESS ANY OF THE MONEY I AM MAKING NOW UNTIL I PAY RESTITUTION TO ALL OF THE OTHER INDIVIDUALS (4 OR 5 PEOPLE) WHO ARE OUT MONEY AND PHONES THEY PURCHASED.

SO PISSED OFF!

FLASHBACK POST: Trust a Try

I'm always quite in awe of the vulnerability I put forth into my writing. I'm also surprised that I worry so much about what I've written or HOW I have written it (I'm an editor to a fault), that I tend to not even post it until it's just right. I submit to you - with hopes of great conversation, a post written on July 10, 2009. I was still in the mere beginnings (9 months in) of my relationship and begin this post speaking about my, then, boyfriend (who later became my fiancee). Now, obviously (to some), we are no longer together (another post coming soon, I'm sure), so understand where this was at that point. Again, this is a PREVIOUSLY UNPUBLISHED post that I'm deciding to post now. Perhaps I'll eventually do a lot of these "FLASHBACK" posts (yes, I have a lot of "unpublished" brain farts. Nonetheless, here's the post:

There are a lot of thoughts going through my head right now and so I'm sure this post will go off on a few tangents, but I will try to keep it reigned in - you've seen my previous posts, they can go pretty far. *look at that, even the first sentence is a run-on - LoL*

So Hifey *I still have to give you a post all about my boyfriend - anyway he* and I were talking *day after day we find more ways to talk about any and everything and are getting much better at this whole communication thing.* Anyway we were talking about a myriad of things involving relationships - but we settled more on a conversation of trust. Basically the conversation went along the lines of how so many people have expressed to us (throughout our almost 9-month relationship) that they feel he and I are the ideal when it comes to a relationship. They feel we exemplify that ultimate, that relationship epitome, and we always ask why they think so. I think we both shy away from this sort of conversation because it puts some sort of stigma on us, some sort of lofty expectation that we don't want to have to live up to. Thank goodness we are both humble enough to take the compliment, give thanks for the intent, and work from it. But with this discussion topic, we often - afterwards - have a discussion asking ourselves why others feel we exemplify this unattainable amalgamation that is, simply, our relationship?

We tend to go on for quite some time trying to come up with reasons why others think we are in such a coveted position but the truth of the matter is that we don't put so much heady weight on it. We know that we are in a relationship and we will do whatever is necessary in order to ensure the union reaches its ultimate level. If that level is never to come, we know that it will likely be because we continued to raise the bar for ourselves. I suppose our mode of thinking is just that we know that despite whatever goes on in our relationship, we will always attempt to make it work - to put in the effort in order to sustain. I have found that most people - when it comes to relationships - list a lot of things that they want *or do not want* when it comes to a mate and where their relationship will go. Yet a lot of them - and dare I say MOST - fall short when it comes to actually putting in the work necessary to at least TRY accomplishing this goal. Now this can probably go into other facets of life as well, but that's another topic, lack of trying is probably the ultimate when it comes to reasons people end relationships - especially those of a homosexual nature.

Now for some honest questions and a hope for some honest answers, as well. How many of you actually COMMIT to the things you want in a mate? When/If your mate should fall short, how quickly do you GIVE UP, solely based on the fact that they aren't exactly what you want? These questions are necessary to ask because I've noticed many questions over the years where people ask "Why am I single?" I guess the question to be asked should go along the lines of whether or not you are asking for too much? Are you exemplifying everything you would want in a mate? Would you want someone to accept you based on exactly what you are? Do you expect more from others than you expect from yourself? I guess I'd rather ask how much of what you REALLY want is what you really need? Why not attempt to make it work as opposed to thwarting all possibility of happiness with this person only because they don't fit into every assorted ring of fire you've aligned for them to navigate? Why not just TRY?