I am not happy with a great many things in my life.
The phrasing of that sentence was difficult. I grappled with saying "I'm not happy" or "I am depressed" or perhaps "I am without happiness." The difficulty was in determining which was most true. Certainly they all hold SOME truth. I settled for finding the greater truth.
It is really hard to see the silver lining when the sheer number of dark clouds makes seeing anything else a chore. I am certain I am blessed beyond measure. I just don't currently feel it wholeheartedly.
I won't bother taking you for a literary voyage through the intricacies of these feelings. My purpose would be better served by simply stating I don't want to feel this way and I must determine what is necessary to overcome it all. Otherwise I may just as well resign to it consuming me.
But where/how do I begin turning it all around?
#sigh
